Conversations with Myself (my first post)

I’m gonna redo this…my first post.  Nothing special here other than posting a post that as I write it, I have no idea what it’s to be about other than conveying this one idea:  we often hold back on contributing to a blog or writing a friend or making that call or doing anything in a creative manner because in fact we’re not quite sure what we’ll say, or we’re hung up on it not being good enough for ‘prime time’ or otherwise letting the perfection monkey take over our head, hijacking our intentions and making us…not do or post anything.  Stay safe.  This is an old story and I’m sure you get what I’m talking about, so to that end:  this post!  A jumbled, clearly written off the cuff rough draft posted all the same in real time as a tatoo to this idea.  Just get it out there.  The good stuff will eventually come, and even if it doesn’t…at least you did something, put something out there.

Even as I write this the doubt monkey and his friend, second guessing ass hole interject:  “Look…I get it, this is cute and ‘fresh’, but if you’re serious, you’re going to ‘work hard’ and ‘sacrifice’ and only put really good, thought out, refined posts ‘out there’…not jumbled, sophomore middle school bull crap!”  They actually said that…bull crap.  It conveys the spirit of what they’re trying to say better than bullshit.  Bullshit is to sharp and precise.  They wanted to keep with the whole half ass, sophomore vibe.  Anyway, what do I say back?  You know, that may be the case, and in the future, I just might do that.  But I’m not going to let that keep me from posting now, because that attitude will just keep me from posting, maybe forever.  Or for years.  It’s happened before.  So, thank you, but fuck off.  I’ll post this now – and btw, it’s not sophomore garbage.  It is what is.  I think it’s good.  I wish more people wrote like this.

So for more future conversations with myself, come back soon.